August 10, 2008

It's hard to imagine...

Well it's hard to imagine, but shopping for our son should be easy, baby blue with some kind of fire truck design or football on it and we are golden. It isn't that easy. You see, our boy might not make it home from the hospital. So, will he even have time to wear it, lay in it, or play with it. Do we get a bassinet or a crib? Do we get a car seat or a stroller? Do we get an inexpensive one or one with all the bells and whistles? Do we get it and just keep the receipt? These are the questions we have to ask our selves. It's not fair! I want to spoil my boy. I don't care how much it costs, but then reality hits me.

It's hard to imagine life without Christian...

Love, Ryan


Anonymous said...

I am so sorry you are going through this...keeping all three of you in my thoughts and prayers!!!!

Angie said...

It is awful, and I hate with everything in me that you are having to go through it. Like you said, there isn't anything fair about it. But even though you don't know what will happen, I know that for however long he is here, Christian will be surrounded by the greatest love from his parents that any child has ever experienced.

I am praying for you!


sea star said...

So sorry for your struggle, it's just not fair. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

The Kielstra's said...

Hi, You don't know me, but I have been reading your blog and keeping up with you for some time now. I don't really remember how I found you. I have been praying for you these past few months.
I have recently lost our baby daughter who was still born at 32 weeks, on may 20th. I know the questions you have, we were also told our baby probably wont live and every time we had another test it showed something else wrong and never any good news. We prayed hard and strong and I truly believe God would heal our baby. Well he healed her, but not in the way I had emagined or wanted. But I know now she is in heaven, the best place for her to be. totally healed and made new and I can't wait to meet her again one day!
I will keep you in my prayers and pray God will bless your precious time you have with Christian!

Erika said...

I just started reading your blog & I thought I’d leave you a comment. I can't begin to imagine what you are going through and no, it isn't fair. No mother should have to think about the things you are dealing with. I am so sorry. I am truly praying for you all.
I just wanted to leave you with a verse I read today- Eph 3:14-19
"For this reason, I bow my knees to the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, from whom the whole family in heaven and earth is named, that He would grant you, according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with might through His Spirit in the inner man, that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the width and depth and height to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge; that you may be filled with all the fullness of God."

Hugs & prayers,