It has been awhile, but things have been moving kind of slow. It is a lot of "Let's wait until the next ultra sound." The wait and see is how we have been living. It's tough, an emotional mess. I'm trying to stay strong and focus on the every day needs and on the future, but have had my moments of deep sadness. You see, our boy is not doing well. We have some tough decisions and arrangements to make in the next few days. I'll let Leah explain in her words what the doctors have told us. She is a much better writer than I.
I just never thought I would be making funeral arrangements for my son before he was even born. My heart hurts every time I think of losing him, but I smile when I think of the joy I'll have when I can hold him, if only for a moment. We have chosen a tough road to travel by not giving up on him, but the memories are our rewards. God bless our son and everyone that is praying for him.